Sometimes things are all put in front of you, but you have no way to understand or clarify them, maybe even cannot take a good look of them... Historians are supposed to organize things in a better way, tidy up data and information, make some sense, sort things out and tell the world what is the true, what was and is in fact happening... However I don't quite believe what historians said as most of the time they just tell their stories in their own way, thus, being terribly stubborn and self-centered talking about their mind and thought. That's one of the reasons why I hate history, historians as well as people who like or study history, and this makes everything ironic as I am a history major student, plus most of the good friends I made in university are history major students as well...

So why? Everything happens in our lives sometimes never make sense and are ridiculous! Why do we have to try so hard to sort things out and tell the world that we are in fact rational and things are happening with reasons?? Why?

After a few days bearing with the high temperature that only can be found in hell , a stormy rain does help in keeping me sane and possitive again.