Trying things the first time

two and a half years later here it comes my first day to work again... i hate first day or trying anything for the first time alone... this kind of situation reminds me of my very first month going from primary school to secondary school... i had no friends and i was facing everything alone, new school, new classes, new teachers, new schoolmates... everything's new... i cried everyday on the way back home and i prayed to god that i would die when i'm asleep so i don't have to go to school... sadly i woke up the next day and force myself to school... nightmares... i feel so stressful to think of adapting a completely new environment. i envy those who feel so excited about trying new stuff, i can't and i need to be in an environment that i'm used to in order to feel safe and secure, or i'll break down. remember two and a half years ago i need to bring something from home with me to work for months, i constantly need to feel, touch, smell that thing to keep me sane. i'm a freak i hope i won't get myself into this kind of situation very much in the future... and i'm having this post to remind myself... THINK TWICE BEFORE QUITTING JOBS.